November 2011
19 posts
open, free, unconditional LOVE
I’ve been spending a lot of my time with my friends who have families as of late- meaning, living either with partner or with child(s) or both. It’s nice. I’m learning a lot. I’m learning a lot about love. From observing their interactions and also being a part of it. I am experiencing love in a way that I never have before. This love is unconditional and without boundary. It is the ultimate...
the magnificent heart.
Did you ever read The Catcher in the Rye when you were young? J.D. Salinger made a huge imprint on me during my early teen years. He talked a lot about the New York Public Library in his books. Margeaux & Richie Tenembaum also used to have runaway sleepovers there.
During my latest visit to New York, I stopped by the library to have my lunch. I was sitting out front in the courtyard next to...
i get by with a little help from my friends.
Thank God for my friends. Thank God for my friends that believe in me and give me hope. Thank God for my friends who serve as my spiritual advisors when I’m feeling low.
Not many people see the side of me that gets challenged and weak. I’m self sufficient and have an unbelievable amount of strength and endurance for the most part. But you know- we all have our moments. We all go through tough...
conversations with nelly.
Scene 1: Listening to music, Bob Marley & Lauryn Hill.
Bob Marley’s dead.
Yeah, but his music is still alive.
So we can remember.
Yep.
How come Bob Marley’s dead?
Because it was his time. Everybody dies. We’re gonna die one day too.
Yeah.
* * *
Scene 2: Walking to the beach
Why is your name Chloe Park?
Why is your name Nelly Ananda?
Because my grandmother’s mother’s mother’s name was...
time & space
Where am I? What time is it?
Two questions I’ve been asking myself a lot lately. Traveling really screws with my sense of time. Maybe because there is no such thing as time? Maybe there’s only such thing as a sense of self existing within the illusion of this “space” and “time.” Maybe everything is the same “time” but we measure it differently based upon the design of Nature to help facilitate a...
nov 13 playlist
been practicing asana to this playlist-
chill & funky if you’re in the mood & into the vibe!
Troddin to Zion- Dezarie
Rastaman Chant- Bob Marley & Busta Rhymes
Electric Relaxation- A Tribe Called Quest
Baby (ft. Tommy Brenneck)- The Phenomenal Handclap Band
Passing Me By- The Pharcyde
Geto Boys (Main Version)- Glass Candy
Weekend Wars- MGMT
Can You Discover?- Discovery
...
it's all about LOVE.
“Chloe! Chloe!”
It was Sergio’s voice. What perfect timing. I had just ended my morning meditation and was laying back in Savasana.
I look out my window and I see him standing in the middle of the river. “Buenos dias Sergio!”
“Vamanos! Let’s go!”
It’s time. My time in Quimixto has officially come to an end. I keep on having to say good-bye. It has been a reoccurring theme as of late.
My friends in...
craniosacral therapy
What is Cranio Sacral therapy?
Cranio Sacral therapy is a type of bodywork that engages the nervous system. Through palpation of the hands and holds that support the skeletal structure of the body, the nervous system then has the space to heal and regenerate. When I say nervous system, I mean the communication between the brain and the nerves of the spine. These two centers are the hub, epicenter,...
you can heal yourself.
Did you know, that at one point in my life…
I was doing lines of cocaine and smoking heroin for breakfast, lunch and dinner.
I had a severe eating disorder that was a mélange of bulimia, anorexia, over eating, etc etc. You name it- I had it.
I was extremely depressed and suicidal.
I was drinking Jack Daniels until I’d forget.
I smoked almost a pack a day.
I’ve almost died 5 times. 2...
feminism, manism, humanism.
I feel and think— that as soon as women stop conforming to the conventional idea and image of femininity, she will finally begin to start enjoying what it means to be a woman. That goes for men too, for all people, for all humans. As soon as we stop adhering to society’s assumptions of what we should be, we will then be free to be ourselves. And I mean our Truest selves- not our...
being a student.
It feels so good to receive from a teacher again. It’s been a while. There is nothing like a pure and truthful teacher/student relationship. Meher Baba says, “despite all external appearances, a teacher must always aide internal processes of growth that support increasingly broader designs of Love.”
God I love being a student.
i love my grandma
Your voice sounds good.
You sound happy.
Halmoni,
Your voice sounds good too.
We are happy.
I love you.
Many many.
I sit here until the sun goes down
Saying prayers for you.
Halmoni,
Even though we’re sitting here
Miles away
Saying nothing,
I just like being with you.
I like being with you too.
Halmoni, I love you.
Many many.
in deep gratitude
Dear You,
My work is fueled by your love and support. I wouldn’t have been able to do this without your help. Whether that be in your words, actions, donations, well wishes and prayers- they are all energy that I humbly receive and feel.
Thank you for your presence in my journey. Thank you for your assistance in carrying out this work. It is a high task for a young lady (in the Western...
on picking fruit.
I made the decision to start teaching & commit to a life that was fully and completely mine in September of 2009. I never imagined for it to evolve in this way. I mean sure- I had a vision, I had an idea of how it would manifest, but the details, the forms, the ways in which it would materialize, all the beauty in between the cracks- now these subtleties are even too subtle for the naked eye...
the collective intention
I watched myself get so angry the other day. I always seem to reach this temperature when there is some sort of injustice happening. My fire came out. Pitta, Sagittarius, Tiger- Fire, Fire, Fire. It’s a lot of fire, I know. Why do you think I’m always striving for balance. Sometimes it can come out pretty fierce- but only when it needs to be. I never seem to find the right words when trying to...
november 5 playlist
Lover, You Should Have Come Over – Jeff Buckley
Hey, That’s No Way to Say Goodbye – Leonard Cohen
Let It Be- Joe Cocker Introduction- Nick Drake
4th Time Around- Bob Dylan
Natural Beauty- Neil Young
The Way the Whole Thing Ends- Gillian Welch
Cry Baby Cry (live studio version)- John Lennon
Grapefruit Excerpts- Yoko Ono & John Lennon
Raindrop Prelude Op. 28 No. 15- Frederic Chopin
may you always feel supported.
I want to give this to you.
She hands me a ring. It’s beautiful. Composed of amber & silver.
I used to wear these big rings all the time. They made me feel real earthy and connected—it felt good to practice in them so I did. I don’t really wear them much any more and when I was talking to you earlier I realized “Hey! I recognize that spirit!” I’m Native American and there’s a word called...
let's get our love on.
My dreams and reality are now One. Woah. These past few years have been intense. Full of avalanches, drops and falls—I’ve finally reached a state of plateau. There have been moments where I’ve almost threw in the towel. I’ve come home crying, despondent, tired, fed up, annoyed, you know- the whole experience of exerting X amount of energy out while not having X amount of energy being returned back...
bali
Ever since I left Bali in 2006, I’ve been wondering when I’d be back. It’s finally time. I’m Bali bound. Two weeks. I’m riding the wings of grace. Quite literally.
2005 & 2006 was a time all about Australia, New Zealand, Thailand, Malaysia, Korea and Bali. That’s when this whole awakening thing really started. Well, actually, Jack Kerourac really hit it to me with On the Road when I was 15....
